That rush.. That swelling feeling of happiness, pride, excitement and all the conflicting elements – worry, anxiety, blind panic for the future, all at the same time. You can literally feel these rising, building so fast and heavy from your stomach it makes you want to cry. And sometimes you do ! Its like someones placed a 30kg ball of different emotions in your stomach and its rapidly growing, becoming overwhelming yet it feels as if your floating with elation. The sickly feeling that comes with it, which you ignore because the laughter and tears are fighting to come out at the same time. What are you actually feeling ?! Every sense is focused on one thing, the one the thing that has caused this sudden upheaval you can’t control. Your child.